Let’s cut right to the chase: I’ve always known I didn’t want kids.
Even more so today, when my biological clock is supposedly going tick-tock-tick-tock, my primal instinct is meant to be kicking in, and all my friends are already proudly sharing sonogram scans and gender reveal photos (don’t even get me started on those) all over social media.
It all started with a single photo. It was a random Tuesday morning - or maybe it was a Thursday - and I was scrolling through social media waiting for the kettle to boil. A glamour shot on the beach. A pair of gym shoes walking on a treadmill. A cute dog. A tin, tearful baby. And then, suddenly, there it was. A small white card with some nearly illegible scribbles on it:
Like almost everyone else on the planet, I can say 2020 has been a completely surreal year. Well, maybe a little bit more for me than for most people. Because in the middle of all of this, I started growing a new life - and it was totally unexpected.
“Congratulations, you have burnt yourself out”. My first reaction was denial. “No, there is no way I burnt out while half of the world was completely frozen”, I laughed. My friend had a serious look on her face. “It happens faster than you think”.
As humans, we sometimes forget that life is about much more than just numbers and organized plans. We rarely leave things up to chance because there’s no way to control them - and when we lose control, we feel like we’ve lost...everything. That’s why so many people miss out on the terrifying beauty of serendipity.
It’s not surprising to say that being a woman is tough: from hormones to periods, societal standards, and everything else in between - and there’s a lot. Womanhood is subject to so much nit-picky commentary that most ladies I know prefer to stay hush-hush about certain topics for fear of being judged, mocked, or outcasted.
“I feel crazy” or “I’m going crazy” tend to be some of the most common statements we use when we want to explain how we are feeling. Whether it's stress-related, feeling overwhelmed, overstimulated or stretched too thin.